6th
Tomorrow...
Did she know…? Did she realize in her last moments what they were doing to her…?
This goes around and around before I can sleep… A very drugged sleep…
I find a concept in the Zoroastrian Faith very interesting-
“You should not harm yourself.”
Which would include things like Fasting.
But what more- you should not grieve over a loss of loved ones or cry, for grieving is detrimental to your health…
It’s going to be terrible tomorrow-
When I get home-
There is going to be no more clicking of her nails upon the tile
As she runs at me-
No more “HELLO!”s and hard swings of her tail-
A greeting coupled with jabs of the nose
As she smelled everything I had, “checking for dangerous goods (AKA: food)”
No more jabbing with her nose
At my hand
Every time she wanted to be taken out-
No more games of hide-and-seek-
No more races around the house-
No more wrestling matches on the floor-
No more begging for cookies and food,
No more orders listened patiently-
No more kisses when I ask, “please?”-
No more hugs when I’m feeling sad
The only things left
Are her toys and snacks
Her dog food and cheese
And medication, too.
And maybe faint smells of her around the house
And cats and dogs looking for her-
I will forever hear
The little clicking of her nails
As she trotters throughout the house-
“Hello, Hello, are you awake now?
Come take a walk with me!”
I am afraid to stop myself from crying
For a fear that once I do
I will forget and lose her forever…
If you have a pet-
Or anyone you love, really-
Please, next time,
Give him or her the biggest hug
And cuddle close for as long as you can-
You never know when you’ll lose
Everything that meant so much to you.
